Where is my life headed?

Wow, where to begin.. where is my life headed? I have no earthly idea.. I do have a picture in my head of how I wish it would go, but will it.. only God will know.
This past week, the guy I had been dating for two months (I know, not very long) decided that I was too much of a hindrance to his future.. at least for now. I guess I really don't understand the word hindrance.. I thought hindrance is when something or someone is holding you back from something you want. If this is true, I have no idea how I am a hindrance to him.. I had always been there for him when he needed me, I was always there to support him.. how is this a hindrance?! Someone please tell me.. it has been especially hard because we are on winter break.. meaning he is stuck in Dallas and I'm in Austin.. so we've been communication over the phone, which is a screwy situation in and of itself. Maybe it's the fact that we pretty much had spent everyday and night together of that two months and then all of a sudden we can't see each other everyday, we can't have the comfort of being in each others arms.. I don't know. He's coming with me to San Antonio for New Years still, which I am hoping is a blessing in disguise.. we will then be able to talk face-to-face and work all of this out.. I hope.. he is an amazing guy, and he took a little bit of my heart with him when he told me he didn't want to be with me anymore.
On a different note, my BFF (ha, love ya Matt) and I decided that once we get back from winter break we are going to be work-out buddies, which is AMAZING.. I need to work out.. I'm starting to feel like a fat lard.. except not.. I don't really think that.. there are parts of my body that I love.. haha, and parts that I hate.. and I am hoping to fix those parts that I hate in a healthy way : )
Well, that's about all I have for now.. until the New Year..

BONNEYYYYYYYY..

I am definitely new to blogging.. so here goes nothing:

Ahhh, a break.. from school.. but not quite the break I was hoping for so far. I already miss my friends and I am already getting tired of living back at home for the month. It is insane going from being on my own to living with the parentals again.. no, I don't have a curfew or anything like that.. but I do get asked questions if I decide to go somewhere for the night. I am also extremely bored ALREADY.. I don't have a job.. although I'm starting to wish I did. I don't really have the friends down here like I used to.. therefore, I tend to occupy myself by sitting on the computer all day.. or watching TV.. I feel like a fat ass. On top of all that.. I failed all my classes for a very stupid reason.. now I definitely feel like a failure.. although most of my friends are saying it may have happened for a reason.. I'm starting to feel like they are wrong.. but who knows.. maybe it did happen for a reason.. we shall see.